Solitude is met

Not chosen but forced

By society

Facing traits I dislike

Having to mend my broken mind

And broken heart

So long I put aside

What being single was all about

I saw myself undesired

Not wanted

Fighting a battle

Not seeing the light and possibility

To find myself

First the drunken nights

The broken soldiers of the night

Having to lose it all

To find comfort between four walls

To start again

Repair myself

Maybe not soon as in tomorrow

But I'll start tonight

Solitude as seen to be

An unhappy ending

But rather a beginning

I no longer travel under the stars

I meet my comfort

Without another on the other side of the bed

I don’t even say a word

Just fall asleep in my own silent space

I choose solitude, for now

Meet my thoughts

And make peace with them

Instead of recognition or acceptance

I’ll never get