Abuser
You didnt get your way
So you took it out on me
Sceaming in my face
Not caring who might see.
Your temper starts to flair
Your voice starts to rise
And all of this for nothing
It came as a surprise.
I try to calm you down
Get to the bottom of this
But all you do is escilate
You swing and you dont miss.
Pain swells up in my face
Im shocked and so surprised
My eyes start to water
But im far to proud to cry.
You disapear into your room
Leaving me to mend myself alone
Why have i not seen this before
This side you failed to show.
I lock myself away downstairs
In the safest place i find
There are so many questions
That are rushing through my mind.
What is it i have done
To deserve such punishment
All ive ever done for you
Is listen while you vent.
I take a look inside the mirror
And the damage i asses
With a touch of makeup and some blush
I can cover up this mess.
I wipe the blood from off my lip
And draw a long hot bath
I think about what i should say
So as to not fuel your wrath.
The next morning you apologize
Unaware of what youd done
I pretend to give forgivness
But my real plan is to run.
My oppertunity has come at last
To get my things and leave
I planed this out and planned it well
And kept it up my sleeve.
Soon you will be coming home
And your in for a surprise
I dont have to deal with all your shit
Or listen to your lies.
I took a stand for myself
To desifer right and wrong
And that is why i am not here
And all my stuff is gone.
Please save yourself the embarresment
Because i wont ever take you back
I see what life can really be like
Ive choose a different path.
Ive choosen to be happy
And live my life for me
You threw away what chance you had
So please just leave me be.
By desteny smith
(2014)
