Dear Mommy

Today I counted all of my flaws

Today I counted all of the scars

Today I told myself how much I hated myself

Today I cried and cursed myself

Today I tortured myself mentally and physically do that no one else has to

Today I surrounded myself in the deep dark depths of Black

I let it wrap me in its grasp

I let it whisper things to me

I told Black things I’ve never told anyone else

I let Black take me for a walk

But Black said that the next time we go we’ll never return

Black said its coming back for me

Dear Mommy

Are you happy

Do you still think of him

Do you wake up in the middle of the night screaming in pain

Do you smile more or less now that he’s gone

Do you still love us

Are we making you unhappy

Have you talked to Black

If he comes for you don’t go

Your family needs you

Dear Mommy

I’m going back with Black and we’ll fly away forever this time

Dear Mommy

I flew today