Pain
I once was happy,
I once was okay,
My broken heart,
And crying eyes,
Remind me that I’m not,
Drowning in sadness,
I hear their sighs,
Losing myself in pain,
A pain that will not fade,
You’re my light,
And they’re my shade,
A shade of darkness,
A shade of pain,
Crying myself to sleep,
I have nothing to gain,
Dying inside,
My heart hurts,
My eyes are open wide,
Someday I know things will change,
Or at least I hope,
Hope is all I have,
Why won’t they let me be,
My life is becoming a tragedy,
But they’re too blind to see,
I’m breaking,
And no one cares,
My heart is aching,
My soul is dying,
They show no empathy,
My feelings of guilt,
Living a life of endless struggle,
Falling apart,
Trying to appear normal,
My mind is cluttered,
It’s hard not to lose touch,
Touch with reality,
No confidence,
Low self—esteem,
Nothing else to say,
My words rot and fade away,
They work hard to make my life worse,
They could care less if I was in the back of a hearse,
They leave me behind,
I’ve been alone all this time,
They can’t see the pain in my eyes,
They don’t realize this pain is my life,
They can’t hear my heart,
And is broken beating,
From being torn apart,
My life I will not abandon,
I just curl up and cry,
No longer wishing to die,
Just wishing for a better life,
I feel as if I’m a waste of time,
No one understands the way I feel,
I pray and wish this wasn’t real,
But my happiness,
They continue to steal,
Falling from grace,
My life is a waste,
I wish this would pass,
I don’t know how much longer I’ll last,
I’m so far gone
You don’t even know,
But does my pain not show?
My pain is growing larger,
I can barely put up a fight,
Hopefully someday my dreams will come true,
And I won’t have to live without you,
I lie in the fetal position on my bed,
Screaming in the dark,
As if someone were there,
I get a bad feeling deep down inside,
My pain I can no longer hide,
They hate me,
They call me weird,
They wish I were gone,
But what if I disappeared?
They won’t leave me alone,
I’m feeling numb,
Time stops,
And stands still,
Each day feels like a year,
I lay crying,
Cold, empty, and alone,
Am I dying?
All night long I drown in tears,
Falling into a darkness of fears,
I can’t forgive,
Nor can I forget,
They want me to,
But I can’t leave you behind,
A better life I’m trying to find,
Crying quietly,
Gripping my pillow tight,
The situation is unreal,
I can’t believe the pain they make me feel,
I once was happy,
I once was okay,
But now I’m not,
So much has changed,
And I’m to blame…
