Crying Loudly but its all in my head,

The expression you see is a smile instead,

But if you look deep in my eyes they will tell you a tale

About how my appearance became so frail.

For the people around me I put on an act,

To hide the truth of control my life lacked.

Inside I am weak, Helpless and cold,

I feel Ive no-one to comfort me, no-one to hold.

I pace up, down and around my bed,

Trying to clear my head,

But inside my mind where the voices hide

I listened to what they said.

The noises I hear are the voices I fear,

I cannot drowned out the sound.

Palms sweating and heart is racing,

Collapsing to the ground.

Chest tightening... i cannot breathe n vision turning black,

Here again on my own suffering another Panic Attack!