The Addict
& She’d give anything to make the pain stop,
Give any little tiny thing she could muster,
Any word, beautiful epitaph, chronology, excuse,
Excuses, she’s full of those, isn’t she?
But what you don’t know is that she once was full of life
She once radiated a glow that drew people towards her,
Once controlled the atmosphere of a room with her cheerful laugh,
Once danced upon stages, reciting lines from a book of words,
Pretended, pretended and loved every moment of it
Now she pretends to be okay,
On this broken, cracking to the cornerstone, stage of life,
Where they ripped off the wing of her costume,
Slashed the velveteen garments she performed in,
Dancing, now, beneath the body of the man who will give her what she wants,
Reciting the words from the beautiful, thick book where she hides until he is finished
destroying her once again
One pill....
Two pills....
Three pills....
Shot of vodka,
Shot of Jack,
Time elapsing...
Finally, release...
They dissolve in her bile,
Seeping through the cracks in her intestines, hitting her blood,
and finally, finally, finally —she is at peace enough to rest
(2012)
