Jose, I say his name then i breath in deeply as if that sound of his name was breath of fresh air. He fills my heart with love this is a feeling i never thought i would feel befor. The thought of his touch sends a chill down my spine. I cant help but admire the way hey moves or speakes or smiles, i try to notic the little things about it him trying to get a better undersatnding of  his personalty or what lys beneathe it i wanna know his heart what makes him scared or nerveous what makes him laugh what makes him sad i wanna know his hopes his dreaams what makes him, him when we lye down and talk i pay attention to every word he says i never knew someone could make me feel so special at  first i was scared and tryed to run cuz l word didtn mean much to me after being used and abused so much that word was a word i didnt want to here or beleive that someone could actulay mean it cuz i try to sheild my self  from love and play games and i wounder how he got past that how did he avoid the bs i bring to the picture when love becomes all to real how did he catch me when i thought i was running so fast but im glad he did im glad he gave me hope in a subject i thought didnt exist  and now im left defenceless my heart wide open all of my trust invested in one person and all of my heart thats alot to just give away, But hes speacial he knows me he knows my past and he know my fear of being hurt and yet he doesnt care about what ive done he doesnt care that im scared cuz he know im safe in his arms and its not just about love its about friendship also hes my best friend and if i loose his love i would loose my friend but i know this is forever i can feel it in my soul no matter what anyone else says all that matters is that hes mine and i will forever be his