Atop Of This Wall
Why should I try to make sense of it all
When thus far all endeavors have failed
Why should I struggle to win in this world
When each chance that I’ve had I’ve assailed
What can I make of the pieces that lie
Broke and scattered in front of my view
What is the purpose of picking them up
When it’s clear I don’t know what to do
Why should I hope for the darkness to leave
And the sadness to fall from my eyes
When it’s clear I will never give up this charade
And stop hiding behind all the lies
I’ve gone through these questions again and again
But the answer is always the same
That I don’t have the answers, not even a clue
And I’ve only my own self to blame
For I’ve pushed away everyone who ever tried
To assist me and show me they cared
And I’ve burned every bridge that my path ever crossed
Just to prove to the world that I dared
So I stand all alone with no friends and no home
And no future to speak of you see
And no reason to live, so no reason to give
Anyone any chance to reach me
For I know what they’ll say as the coax and the sway
Me to come back from off of this ledge
But I’m on my way down to my hole in the ground
My next step to become my last pledge
But I’m frozen in fright looking into the night
At the city that brought me to stand
Here atop of this wall so I’ll try all in all
Reaching out to take the angel’s hand
(2010)
