Tried
Even though I crossed that path, patiently, grateful, bold, you let me fall on the ground.
There, where nothing grows, where we are left behind.
I saw you at first and tears ran down, them, already telling me, run.
But no, I stayed up every single night waiting for a little bit of time. I sat down on my own asking, what the hell I’m doing here.
My skin burned down to my bones and I tried to make moments of life.
Oh yes, you will definitely not see it.
You can’t.
It’s this my truest love?
It’s this my truest love?
I repeated to this corpse in desperation for an answer.
Here you are, beside me, still, I only see a blurry picture of what it seems to be a perfection.
My heart beats like a drum, my head is filled with constant desire for my freedom.
I know you are not here.
Where’s the uncertainty of an adventure?
Where’s your empathize smile?
I don’t know who’s inside me anymore. I lost my senses. I loose up what they like to call dignity.
What I am hearing?
Who’s here with me?
I have tried, I have tried.
You are away, but by my side.
I reach out to you with all, you remembered how to cutthroat, I can’t breathe in this place, I cannot stop you. Waves crashing on my face, I’m drowning in an empty space. For this seems like the end, disintegration of nothing, a colossal mistake.
I tried, how much I tried.
I cannot make you over, I cannot make you feel, yes, if you would only knew what I’ve done for you, if you could only hear this screaming calling you back and back, and back.
No, it was not suitable to die from within, it isn’t your eyes, not in those treasures that I hold on, not even in this love where I am alone.
I tried, I tried.
No, I cannot make you love me.
