Baby Steps
So stupid, I sit and wait for your call
Even walk around, pace up and down the hall
I should have known not to get my hopes high
Just one more of all your lies
I’m not mad, just feel a little dumb
Wish i could make my feelings numb
It’s like if i don’t race out there
Then i might miss the chance when you all will care
It’s like second hand gossip around me
Just wish closer we could be
But like i said I’m not mad
Why do i look sad?
The same shit i have to hear
Wish it would just disappear
Really could I be so selfish inside
So i take my feelings and I hide
Because I feel weird when i tell you
I’m a little lonely and don’t know why I’m missing it
Just trying to start over, maybe let the past go a bit
But forgive me when i get angry when you don’t call
And I start to pace the hall
It’s cause i never let anyone inside
I bury a lot of me and I like to hide
So when I finally do it means so much
Like a lost soul reaching out but cant touch
So it hurts inside but I forgive you
For you don’t understand what to do
I guess I need to take baby steps a little more
So the next time I will be sure
I will be able to handle being disappointed.
