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Unwanted advice to my 17 year old self

Judge me for my size or judge me for my shape
Jokes and comments during my entire existence
Yet you’re surprised that your daughter is sleeping around
Yet you’re surprised that your sister chased that boy down
Judge me for my hips judge me for my waist
You didn’t raise me up you only tore me down
Yet you’re surprised when I flunked math
Yet you’re shocked when I want to move
Love doesn’t change the scars
Love can’t change the need
The attention he gives makes me feel less like a freak
Fat girls need love too
But I didn’t get his love or his love or his love
Attention will do
Sex is enough
But wait
Maybe it’s not
Maybe there’s an attachment that you didn’t expect
Yet you surprise yourself by feeling empty
Yet you shock yourself because losing weight didn’t change your vision
Sleeping with the taken one didn’t change your vision
When you’re broken you are broken
Yet you’re surprised when no one can fix you by flirting
Yet you’re surprised when you’re not fulfilled
Baby girl if I could go back I’d tell myself what I’m still learning now
Loving yourself isn’t easy but neither is waiting on a man to come love you the way that you need



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