Not once did life ever, seem to deal you a fair hand, the pain you held inside you, was just more than you could stand..... ...I hope you know I love you, and though  you’ve gone away,  my heart is where I’ll hold you, and in my heart you’ll stay..........I wish I could get angry, then maybe this wouldn’t hurt so bad, but I for one knew your pain, so I couldn’t imagine being mad.......I loved you like my sister, my cousin sister and my friend, there still so much we’re meant  to do, this isn’t how our time is suppose to end.......... I scream at God to answer me, as I curse up at the moony, he made you to damn beautiful,  to let  us lose you so soon.......You took yourself away from us, we cannot change that now, so now I guess we try to heal, but I have no clue how ...........we’ll teach your kids your goodness, and share with then good years, I’ll talk about your smile and laugh, I hope that that will ease their tears .........You will walk my dreams at night, your face is etched into my heart, my soul is crushed and helpless, my world is torn apart.......I hate myself for failing you, I could of helped you more, I’ll never forgive myself for that, of that fact I am sure.........so goodbye my baby sister, goodbye my sweet friend, I hope to see you someday, when this world ends........Forever you’ll be with me, kept safely in my heart, but when you took your leave that day, You ripped my heart and soul apart....... LOVE I FOREVER  JESS