I’m Short of words to explain the feeling deep inside my bleeding heart, I’ve been told –the heart is where love is situated but a spear has been short right where love claims to be situated
and all u can ask the world is 'why am I Still alive’?
am I alive to live for you? am I alive to love you?
though I dont buy trust that easily?  My heart still beats only for you. You told me I was the only one but why is it so hard for me to believe? is it because i’ve done that to several people before?  we all know what they say “do unto others and it shall be done unto you” I really love you I do. For the first time in my life I have vowed to be loyal but loving you brings pain into my sad life pain that I never wanted to experience again but hey its happening. My eyes are flooding again I have no direction, part of my heart tells me to love someone else but that’s only 10% and 90% of my heart loves you and you alone. I’m short of words to continue this piece. I’m broken inside and for the first time tears dropped on my ink and paper.  I can hear my soul crying I can see the bloody eyes yes its standing infront of me, Powerless,  and im stuck in between moving on or fighting ..Fighting will only ruin my life and loving you will only be meaningless
What next?