Sin
To God
The forbidden things of him
Make me sink and swim
My mouth cries out to the sky for help
From a long lost friend
I welp out at my own self infection
So frustrated with my own thread
Music is my only escape from the screaming pain
I feel like I... I’m going insane with this need that is never met
This ball that is never caught
I feel like rotting in my own cell to my own devices of torment
I want to vent but talking is getting me nowhere fast
I must last this out for if my mind goes wild my soul will be at peace at last
They can watch me from a far let my demons watch
Maybe I can teach them something
Try and make these lines evens so that something will make sense to at least me
Maybe if I do it just one more time I will stop
Just to see if He will get mad at me and lash out
I know He forgives me too easily
I will mop up my mess I have made so many times
I have my doubts and He freely laughs at my bad decisions
Because He knows one day it will all end
I will terminate this He is just being patient
He will send my angels and finally bring me tranquility
Once I pick up the swap and clean the debris
And in cleaning the pain gone I will be free!
(2014)
