I blend in like camouflage 

Like a well hidden chameleon 

Always off to the side while others are admired 

Always feeling like that ugly duckling 

That swan that didn’t quite grow up 

Confidence not too strong 

Self esteem not too high 

Kinda hard when I work so hard for the relationships I have 

Bc in reality it wasn’t that easy to appear in the first place 

Instagram dates and “hey you’re beautiful” over social media 

But in real life I’m not seen 

Now I’m not saying I’m ugly 

I guess I’m just different 

Living in a place so superficial and being so opposite 

You would think I would stand out 

But no my type or my look isn’t what’s hot 

It’s not the cool thing right now 

Kind of discouraging when I go places with friends 

Always catch myself stepping off to the side

Or walking a few steps behind so that they can get their shine 

Then I’m waiting just pretending to be on my phone 

It’s become the norm I’ve become  accustomed to my role 

The wingman that the one meant for me doesn’t see 

So I’m just there filling space 

Twiddling my thumbs with imaginary texts and looking at ig posts 

People say “oh you’re pretty too” and “oh your time will come” 

Or “you need to wear contacts” and “you need to learn how to wear makeup”

Since when has different and not like the crowd become despised? 

Guess this is just gonna be my life 

But hey I’m just ranting