(2013)
To put it simply each beat of your heart is a gift that I receive with the anticipation of a child at christmas
I say hello and you say nothing You may hear me you may even think of a response
There is poetry in nature better left to be spoken wordlessly by the breeze
I awoke in the dark next to you and more alone than ever I was amazed to hear your heart beating from
I wrote this while thinking of you so I guess you could say this poem is eight years in the making
I get my silence in five minute doses before the plane overhead brings me back to earth
Forever seems like so long until I think of all the times spent waiting
Under the weight of life I forget how to breathe and I feel suffocated I hesitantly make peace with the world
I’ve kept my eyes closed most of these past eighteen years because I find it just as dark
I thought I could drink you away but I had to stop being so drunk on you first
You were the wind beneath my wings but I was Icarus so all I did
All that I know how to do is write about death without dying and write about life
Just when I get back on my feet you pass on by and I lose my footing Again
Everyday I visit the only writers block I know to hone my words and wit and help them cut deeper into the skin
I would write a sweet poem and title it with your name if I loved you at all
