If you knew me at all you would’ve known I wasn’t kidding, you would’ve known I was lying. If you knew me you would’ve looked me in the eyes, held me tight and  told me everything’s alright, and if you knew me, you’d know the long sleeves and short laughs are a disguise to hide my blood covered arms and misguided cries. If you cared you would’ve known I wasn’t kidding when I left you like you left me, to go slit my thighs and let you’re words and actions take over my life . You would’ve known I just wanted to die. Why did you leave me alone. Why did you leave me and let me die inside and think that if you apologize everything will be alright?
If you actually knew who i was,
Id still be alive inside.