I Would
If I could climb over the railings and go close to the edge and jump off a bridge I would...
If I had the guts to slash my throat
And grab my neck as I gasp for air while I try to close it shut
I would...
If I could drown myself in my pain
literally hurt myself and drown myself as I try to stuff my face to close the drain
Maybe it would suck my nose stuck so i have no choice but to stay remained
I would...
And if I found a random gun and just happen to have the bullets I’d load them and pull the trigger until there’s scatters of my brain
I would...
If I could get some type of rope to tie my neck up on the ceiling as I jump from my chair and hang up all my feelings
I would...
And when I get my hands on pills
I’d shove them all in my mouth and even though I start to gag I still continue to swallow
There’s no such thing as tomorrow
I’ll forever choke on my sorrow
I would...
So close to losing my grip right now
You’d think I would attempt by now
If I didn’t hope for change
I would . . .
