For me....

At this time,

I can’t but feel this earth is so bitter to me.

So bitter In truth I can taste its cruelty.

But.....

Despite this bitter cold you some how make it bear so much fruit for me.

I never wanted too,

Never wanted to see that No good could come of love thats not shared

But!

Despite loves taste being unknown to me,

A thing never shared with me,

A thing never felt by me.....

I utterly understood that if I continued to live my life as carefree as dust......

I’d simply hide and choke the glow of your rose, with that dust......

Ray I know this.....

I know this earth can be bitter and so so cold......

But it can also be as warm as the sun itself.

I truly believed......

Believed that the voice inside me that cried out and screamed longing for someone to be kind to me and to love me would remain unanswered.

Then for the first time in my whole life,

Selflessly

My voice was answered.

Now,

Despite after all the terrible things that have happened to me,

I now feel warmth,

warmth I’v never felt and never thought I would.

A warmth that was alien to me but now I crave.

I bathe in its beauty.