June 11th, 2023
My self deprecation Are humbling jokes As to starve my ego Not a reflection of self hatred My sense of self
With words left unspoken These promises broken Are washed away by These emotions awoken Forgive the sinner
It’s not the familiarity It’s not the loneliness It’s not the memories It’s not the safety It’s not the comfortability
Long-lost souls unite, Tears of joy in heartfelt hugs, Reunion’s embrace.
Most people drain me But you are not most people You recharge my soul
My hands grow weaker This hold I will prolong My legs shake and quiver But still I’ll stand strong My mind is chaos
The only fitting punishment The Gods could conspire To make us pay for our transgressions against the… You stole the stars from their sky
I cut this final cord. So why do I still feel bound? Oh, another cord.
Were your reasons true? Were they for me or for you? Was there really nothing we could… I wonder. Why was it easier to hide?
I wish that these words No longer reflect my pain But my devotion
What I do Was for you Now it’s me Found self love But I still
This hope A cold burning A flame made of shadow Fueled by need and fueled by desir… Goes out
The longer I wait for you The more I prolong this pain The longer you wait to speak The more distant I become The more I heal
This bed is too big I have too much space These blankets are too much Engulfing me, but I still shiver I have too much food
My vision clouds with these tears Tears made from our memories Maybe one day the they will stop Or I won’t feel them anymore