Words fail.
Waking up in darkness, the moon shining through my window… With tear filled eyes I sit up and remember what I was dreaming. His smiling face shining.
center Two years ago, I lost my brother, my friend. Although he wasn’t perfect,
Dear Man, I’m not going to pretend that I u… Pretend that everything is alright… It’s not. I’m hurt.
Lord, Things are unbearable. I have been shouting. I have been crying. Hoping you would listen.
Peace comes: When laying under the stars. When wrapped up in his arms. When listening to bird song. When speaking to God above.
In my eyes I see us, standing side by side, nothing can come between us, no matter how hard people try. In some eyes they see him,
This storm can’t take away my sorr… This rain can’t wash away my fears… I am scared of all tomorrows, I’m scared to wipe away my tears. I only need someone to listen,
I walk around, feeling whispers. Avoiding the eyes that prosecute m… The stares. The glares.
Joy, light, happy moments, big smiles, comforting arms,
Sister I love you, but only because I have to. That’s what momma told me, when I said I hate you. I hate the way you smile,
I see your face. Lifeless and pale, resting on a pillow of white silk. I try to pretend you’re sleeping, but the tears in my eyes betray me…
Don’t leave me brokenhearted. Don’t leave me in the dust. Don’t pretend you love me, if all you feel is lust. I’m scared you’ll walk away.
Love life, but love death also. It isn’t the end, only a beginning that we don’t und…
Cousin. Brother. Best friend. All one person and now he’s dead.