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Lady J- As I AM Me !

There is a long story about me.
A story that some cant even believe.
A story of failure and a journey I’m on trying to succeed.
My attempts have been many.
My goals overloaded,
and my head feeling as if it would be better off exploded.
I try to let people close but i somehow push them away.
I try to tell myself to not leave instead to just stay.
But I know the meaning of being strong.
Sometimes its letting go instead of holding on.
Maybe none of this sounds right. Maybe its all wrong.
But how will I ever know.
How can I demonstrate back what others don’t show.
How can I minister in a place that doesn’t preach.
How can I learn from a person that doesn’t teach.
Will i ever truly figure out what it is I deserve.
Probably not likely because you only get what you have earned.
So far in my life I have hit rock bottom and reached the peak.
Became a little stronger just to again become weak.
Have accumulated and have lost it all.
Rebuilt myself from the ground where i would again fall.
Fine tuned one thing after the other.
Just to be disliked by yet another.
See if I perfect one thing I lose track of something else.
And I get so wrapped up in being my best that I’m no longer myself.
Because I try to be what everyone else may see,
as absolutely positively amazing ...
yet its as if they never get to see who I am, as I am me.
I know I am flawed and fallible,
but very much determined to become dependable.
I dont give up I keep persisting to improve the life im living.
Conclusion is basically I just want to continue to be the one person I am.
If you can learn to accept that I am all I can be.  
Amanda a.k.a Lady J - As i am me.
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