My Handshake With The Devil
My HandShake With The Devil: From nine to twelve of age,
I went through horrible things,
I was being molested by no one other,
Than my only older biological brother.
When I was thirteen I found out inadvertently,
That he was also doing this to all my siblings.
So I walked into his room,
And did something I truly didn’t want to do.
But I acknowledge it was the only way to,
Save my brothers and sister, all I ever knew,
I said to my brother “I am going to make a deal with you,
And it is completely your choice, if you are to choose”
But I knew I was going to make a deal he wouldn’t refuse.
I offered all of myself to protect the ones that meant most to me.
He could do anything to me, But he had to promise, guarantee,
He would never touch another,
one our sister, or our brothers.
He so he said softly to me “I accept”
And that is when we had shaken hands.
The next night I found out,
exactly what it was all about.
At the age of thirteen,
I was robbed of my virginity,
my purity,
my innocence,
and everything left good in me.
I had to watch p*rn movies,
things my eyes didn’t want to see.
Doing things I didn’t want to do,
Saying things I didn’t want to, too.
I did this for years,
Cried plenty of tears,
I still have all these inner fears,
and every night am haunted with nightmares.
I chose to shake hands with the devil,
I will have to live with that choice forever.
The pain will stop, not ever, no, never.
And I’ll never have my innocence put back together...
But Only For You,
To All Of My Siblings,
My everythings,
Whom I love so much,
I did not want you to be touched.
I did this for all of you.
And as bad as it feels,
I’d again make the same deal.
I’d do it all again, just because I knew.
That giving up myself - saved all of you.
I love you my Siblings. Forever and Eternity!
(2014)
When I was 12 I had found out that my brother was also touching and molesting my siblings. So I decided to make him an offer that he could do anything he wanted to me as long as he promised to never touch my siblings again. From that day forward he never touched my brothers or sister. But at age 13 He had began raping and beating me. I lost my innocence, purity, and virginity to my own biological brother. Although, I would never take back the harm and pain he caused, because it saved my siblings from being harmed anymore.
