Unhappy thoughts Replace my good mood Sending my heart fluttering Angrily against my chest Demanding to prove their worth

Looking in the window I’m frozen in place As I watch the scene inside I’m looking at the woman Who claims to be an outsider

You hide behind your big smile But I know you wear a mask And I see the lies you hide I see the scarred fragile soul Cracking beneath the weight.

I don’t want to see. How empty I am on the inside. My heart, shattered. My spirit, broken. My soul, torn.

Guarantees a long painful death ...

Forgiveness is the hardest gift to… Tears clouding our vision Our sadness turning to madness Hiding our hearts beneath Thick layers of rust

We wrap ourselves in bubbles The numbness keeping us safe From the pain we hide from Silence filling gaping holes In our hearts as we try to forget

Stupid Boy I wish you could have seen How much you were loved Maybe if you had known... Things could have been different

A fluke encounter Letter after letter Turning me inside out Each new exchange Giving me

Starting Over There are no words The silence stretching between us As we struggle to breach the gap Our breathing labored

Disappointment is everywhere I lo… It is in the faces of those I adm… And shown in their actions I wish I could fix everything All the hurt feelings

You don’t deserve this attention You’re not worth the time of day! My heart may be crushed Evident from my bleeding tears My sadness flooding my resolve

My ceiling is dreary The white paint Paled from the years Flaking and peeling I stare morbidly content

Here is the thing Before you came along I was doing just fine I knew the score My days all had an order