Most every cry, felt so hollow.
Most every day, so hard to swallow
Most every dream, turned into sand
Mostly I crawled, to weak to stan
Most days blended together,

Fuck you for all the filthy things
Fuck you for all the things you hi
You think you have the world foole
But I’m living in this nightmare
What you say and what you do are s

You want me to believe you, but yo
You want this love to last, but I
You show me what you want me to se
You tell me you’ll treat me better
Who are you really and what are yo

And where’s that beautiful sunset
I can’t get enough sleep these day
Where are the dreams we always tal
Why is my mind plagued with stress
What kind of trauma has been done

Today was the day I would say far
I decided I could no longer live
A world full of anger, pain, sadne
A fake smile being my only disguis
I want to smile again and have it

Can you see me, I’m standing righ
Can you feel me, I’m very near.
Can you hear me, I’m talking so l
Do you see all I’ve done, I thoug
Do you love me for me,

The silver lit moon, in the dark g
A mystery to understand, although
Everything is connected, and I in
A beautiful butterfly is formed fr
Without the sun’s bright light not

The ciggerate burns all the way do
As I inhale the smoke, my anxiety
Thoughts twirl around in my mind,
Some things I just can leave behi
I look in the mirror at this body

I can’t believe your gone,
The fucking radio keeps playing yo
It hit so close to home,
I had no place to roam.
Heart heavy and tears in my eyes,

Her eyes were bloodshot,
Her hands were cold.
The battle she fought,
Her heart of gold.
Is it true that the world may have

A heart that stops its rhythm,
A man as deadly as lithium.
She scrambled for her strength and
She just couldn’t get past the non
She longed for the determination s

The trauma has started to set in,
I think about my life and where I
A few choices ago, the decisions t
Why didn’t I go, what made me sta
This is the hand I was dealt, it’

The same things that tie me down,
are the things that let me drown,
I feel the water above my head,
Am I still alive, or am I finally
I fell off the boat, it seemed sta

I'm looking for answers I can’t s
Like a roadblock or obstacle I ca
Do I move backwards or find a dif
Can I ever get around it, or is t
Another night passes with wounds t

I sit here in anguish from the ins
Fighting through this trauma learn
I honestly feel like everything ha
But when my anxiety takes over it
My fears begin to mock me. I end

She wishes her doubt would turn to
She is doing her best just to cope
She smiles even though she feels e
She wants to run away but has no w
So she takes it one moment at a ti

I pull all of our pictures off the
I want to talk, but I can’t bring
Our love such a wonderful adventur
Turned into quite a mess and thing
You lied, stole, and cheated me,

I feel the sadness, you can see it
I do not trust you, my reality dis
Give me a hug, help me through my
Say whatever you need to say,
Take my hands, begin to pray.

It broke my heart that I worked s
Every door I thought I had opened
Wake up and try again another day,
So much inside I just couldn’t sa
So much forcing me under I couldn

He thinks I’m the girl I was befo
The girl he speaks of, is one I c
The world filled my head with ange
Why can't he encourage me, all I
My heart pounding out of my chest,

A young boy taken to soon,
He inhaled the smoke,
He was found in his room.
Many things remind us of him,
Our minds wander to what could hav

The flowers are blooming, a fragra
Children are laughing and playing,
The sun is shining brightly in the
Too bad you don’t have wings it wo
Taking all of nature in,

Passion from his lips,
All the way down to my hips.
Ripping the clothes off of my skin
He’s breathing heavy as he goes in
Tingles running through my body,

Everything happens for a reason,
Changes come and go like seasons.
I see flashes of his face in my mi
Missing that smile, the only thing
If I need to let him go, then why

This was the end,
Everything was nothing like she th
He sank her soul to the bottom of
Everything was different, not as s
Her voice felt so small,

Sometimes we find the light in the
You thought you would never stop c
Bad days end eventually, and good
I wish the world would stop judgin
Most of us are better because we l

Out here in the glistening sunshin
I feel like I’m on my own world a
Music playing softly and birds chi
Harmony and balance mixed with a l
Clothes peeled away from my skin,

I sit here in anguish from the ins
Fighting through this trauma and l
I honestly believe everything happ
But when my depression and anxiety
My fears begin to mock me and I e

It’s as if the stars fell from the
I thought I was strong enough to
Life had been tough several times
Like an unstoppable force, I coul
Being broke or losing pride hadn’t

The sadness washed out from my sou
I couldn’t deny it anymore, I com
The endless tears not allowing me
My broken could no be longer held
Wanting to be alone....away from t

I think about the sun,
But it seems not to shine.
I am nothing,
And nothing is mine.
I sit down to write,