Two Emotions
Fear and Love
Ten months ago I met the man of my dreams
Magic I’ve dare not believed
Never my story, always supporting cast
But in that moment, the lights came on
Man did I run fast
Self-consumed with grief (for I nearly sold my soul)
Days before I met this man, I prayed to know my role
Please send me a sign, my better half, awaken my dimmed light
I feel so lost, so beat down
All consumed stage fright
My prayer was answered, that I’ll never doubt
But with a lesson to heed; pray first for the courage to travel His route
I wish I had asked to be cleared of all my strains
To be strong and beautiful,
Ready to fall into my lover’s reigns
But another hike I’d just begun
I staggered and I limped
With sprains and strains, and open wounds
Every other step I’d wince.
That’s not to say I never looked up
Or never caught a glimpse
When that path opened long and wide
And my angel moved to my side,
I may have just sat down and cried,
For all the love I felt inside.
Quick to jump up, wipe my tears, and get on track,
I tried to show him I was strong, and took my will back
Cartwheels down the path... did I make him laugh?
Climbing up a tree... can he see me?
Rolling in the earth... does he feel me?
Running far ahead... spinning in circles...
Did he leave me?
Now it’s dark, and I’m alone
Wolves howl, and vampires roam
Snakes hiss, and bats swoop low
Tangled webs of spiders glow
Crunch. Snap. Pop. My heart stops.
(2013)
