drunken stupor, apologies pouring… wish i were high but i can’t find… my parents don’t drink so i know a… here’s the thing: i’m not a good p… i yell and scream in my driveway t…

“who ruined winter for you?” “i did.”

i’m dissecting you with a scalpel… i’m slapping you on the rack, reac… pulling out your intestines and di… doesn’t feel so good, does it?

i let you watch me lose my goddamn… raging at the wallpaper and crying… i let you listen to the burning an… and the pop of a pill bottle openi… i let you feel the screaming apolo…

i’m asking you to sunbake me, politely. i want to melt into the cracks, like earth-ending dinosaur juice.

“i hope they don’t turn out like y… and yeah, i think, that’s about ri… i hope they don’t either.

i’m in love with sharks in aquariu… here’s the thing: there’s nothing… more than a shark tank in big citi… there’s so many of them, and they’… they go through every endless circ…

please don’t leave me. you swing your legs, sitting on th… we used to climb it a lot after sc… are you saying you’d miss me? you… yes, fucking yes, i would.

i love you and isn’t that it? isn’t that a slur? to say i love you, when your father spilled that

i’ve got, “i miss you” carved over and over again on my sternum. skin raised and red, but it’ll dull down to a scar. just like the ones on your forearms that i saw when it was just you ...

you hurt me so much, but i never h… i just hated you for telling me it…

sit across from me, with no space in between. chest again chest, and our legs folded awkwardly. wrap your arms around my neck,

i miss being a kid when the saddes…

i love saying no, and watching men who are not accustomed to hearing… grow mad and confused. betrayed by the idea of me ruining… and not the other way around.

is it too late to admit i loved yo… even through it all? summers over, but i still feel it on my skin.