That Man Of My Past
Published on poetry library.
I remember the day,
I felt nothing but pain,
You stood like a crane,
Shouting your nothing but shame,
As you beat in the blame,
It became just a game,
But this will land me my fame,
Day in day out,
I was kicked about,
Home school it was like a rule,
Where ever i went,
A Mark was sent,
Blood fell i was in hell,
I feel apart with a broken heart,
My head was full,
With what i fort was true,
Every step what the heck,
Drink and drugs would feel so cool,
Crime went up but it felt so good,
I craved the love so i made it up,
i hide in lies to get on by,
Memories flashed as i held it back,
As i built it up so i couldn’t see through,
Look what you did you vicious pig,
I’m ill with black that made me black,
So i gash my wrists to get a wish,
That one day i will drop,
And it will be too late for it to stop,
As you’ve changed my life,
I’ve tried so hard,
But it wasn’t enough i needed your love,
But now it’s too late i stare at my grave,
As it eats me up that i had to cover it up,
To act and try so i feel alive,
But deep deep down i just want to die,
It doesn’t feel wrong,
But please don’t cry just cause im gone,
Don’t blame yourself it was only hell,
You shouldn’t be shamed,
But i hope i’m that pain,
That runs through your veins,
Cause i’m as black as they come,
From the lack of your love,
With a twisted lie,
To show people i’m shy,
But give me a chance,
And i will dance,
As i shift all my pain,
And send you my shame,
To make your light slowly go out,
As my darkness will come,
And prick till your numb,
Then i hope you will say,
I should never of blamed,
The one’s you loved,
And everything you’ve done,
So whatever you say,
You made us this way,
So let this in and sit and think,
Cause this is my life,
That i sat down and write,
As far as i can think,
As my tears sit within,
My heart my soul,
That you carved That hole,
That got me a goal,
To share this with the world.
(2012)
A Person from my past
