Dear Dad,

What made it so easy for to push me to the side,

Am I not good enough?

Why did you let me spend the last childhood days without you?,

Did you know dad these past couple years haven’t been easy

Hey dad did you ever think maybe I needed some attention,

I mean I’m your first born and you do me like this

Dad remember when I was a baby,

The way you looked me into eyes

You looked so happy,

But the more I grew up the further you got away

Am I that bad that I scared off my own father?

Daddy remember when I called you that

How your eyes would spark up when I called your name,

The older I got the more disgusted you seem to get by me

Why dad I tried how hard to make you proud of me,

But only Kaylen or Chris could make you proud

Hey dad I stopped going to church since you stopped caring,

Dad did you know I accomplished so I got published, I got accepted in college, I met a great guy, but where are you?

Why dad Do you not know how much pain I dealt with for you approval,

And you still never noticed

What about my life,

What about my kids

Your grandkids,

Where will you be then, Huh

You won’t be in the hospital with me, will you?

Bet you won’t be at my wedding

I know you won’t be involved in my kids life just like you wasn’t in mine,

It hurts me when mom says she hates that I look like you

I hate myself because I see some of you in me,

God said I’m supposed to honor thy mother and father

But how you pushed me to the side like I’m dirt,

Sure it may seem like daddy issues but what did I do to you that was so bad

Guess I have to accept the fact you’re gone,

I can’t save you to act like my father now I could I?

Guess I can’t now can I?