Spring: the first morning when that one true block of sweet, laminar,
            complex scent arrives
from somewhere west and I keep coming to lean on the sill, glorying in
            the end of the wretched winter.
The scabby-barked sycamores ringing the empty lot across the way are
            budded —I hadn’t noticed —
and the thick spikes of the unlikely urban crocuses have already broken
            the gritty soil.
Up the street, some surveyors with tripods are waving each other left and
            right the way they do.
A girl in a gym suit jogged by a while ago, some kids passed, playing
            hooky, I imagine,
and now the paraplegic Vietnam vet who lives in a half—converted ware—
            house down the block
and the friend who stays with him and seems to help him out come
            weaving towards me,
their battered wheelchair lurching uncertainly from one edge of the
            sidewalk to the other.
I know where they’re going—to the “Legion”: once, when I was putting
            something out, they stopped,
both drunk that time, too, both reeking—it wasn’t ten o’clock—and we
            chatted for a bit.
I don’t know how they stay alive—on benefits most likely. I wonder if
            they’re lovers?
They don’t look it. Right now, in fact, they look a wreck, careening hap–
            hazardly along,
contriving, as they reach beneath me, to dip a wheel from the curb so
            that the chair skewers, teeters,
tips, and they both tumble, the one slowly, almost gracefully sliding in
            stages from his seat,
his expression hardly marking it, the other staggering over him, spinning
            heavily down,
to lie on the asphalt, his mouth working, his feet shoving weakly and
            fruitlessly against the curb.
In the storefront office on the corner, Reed and Son, Real Estate, have
            come to see the show.
Gazing through the golden letters of their name, they’re not, at least,
            thank god, laughing.
Now the buddy, grabbing at a hydrant, gets himself erect and stands
            there for a moment, panting.
Now he has to lift the other, who lies utterly still, a forearm shielding his
            eyes from the sun.
He hauls him partly upright, then hefts him almost all the way into the
            chair, but a dangling foot
catches a support-plate, jerking everything around so that he has to put
            him down,
set the chair to rights, and hoist him again and as he does he jerks the
            grimy jeans right off him.
No drawers, shrunken, blotchy thighs: under the thick, white coils of
            belly blubber,
the poor, blunt pud, tiny, terrified, retracted, is almost invisible in the
            sparse genital hair,
then his friend pulls his pants up, he slumps wholly back as though he
            were, at last, to be let be,
and the friend leans against the cyclone fence, suddenly staring up at me
            as though he’d known,
all along, that I was watching and I can’t help wondering if he knows that
            in the winter, too,
I watched, the night he went out to the lot and walked, paced rather,
            almost ran, for how many hours.
It was snowing, the city in that holy silence, the last we have, when the
            storm takes hold,
and he was making patterns that I thought at first were circles, then real–
            ized made a figure eight,
what must have been to him a perfect symmetry but which, from where
            I was, shivered, bent,
and lay on its side: a warped, unclear infinity, slowly, as the snow came
            faster, going out.
Over and over again, his head lowered to the task, he slogged the path
            he’d blazed,
but the race was lost, his prints were filling faster than he made them
            now and I looked away,
up across the skeletal trees to the tall center city buildings, some, though
            it was midnight,
with all their offices still gleaming, their scarlet warning beacons signal–
            ing erratically
against the thickening flakes, their smoldering auras softening portions of
            the dim, milky sky.
In the morning, nothing: every trace of him effaced, all the field pure
            white,
its surface glittering, the dawn, glancing from its glaze, oblique, relent–
            less, unadorned.

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