Looking up
You couldn’t do one thing
I wanted one thing
And it
Was to speak to you.
Nothing
this isn’t speaking
It’s not making sense
It’s because it’s not you
Is it’s someone pretending?
Someone playing games?
Idk if you even exist anymore
I thought at least it was someone connected to you
Idk if any of this is worth the confusion
It makes no sense
I thought at least it was a group of you so somehow one might know.
I had another dream
I’m to tired to repeat now
I’m just so bored
I just needed to speak to
Whoever you were
I needed to talk to you
And now I’m letting you go
you make no sense
Almost like it’s a distraction
On purpose
I’d give up a destiny
If it’s without you
I don’t know why
I don’t want it
I’m suppose to fear?
What.
Witchcraft?
Control?
Brainwashing?
Technology?
Invasion of privacy?
Why?
I don’t care
Laying down my need for control
Ok.
I’d do anything just to speak To you
And that’s why you won’t
It’s how I know what kinda of person you are
You know u and I
If you still break
You know you and I.
Whatever
Whoever
However
I just wanted to speak
If you can’t
Fine
I’ve got others to talk to
Others to meet.
My dream wasn’t pleasant
Made me sad
Your kin
Phony and fake
laughed with me
Showed me a pic of me and you
I’d never seen
I said why would he let that happen to him?
Behind bars
I asked her why?
Well
Disfigured
So what?
I said
Then I saw something else
Arm
So what?
Then something hidden
Native American
money
Banks
Cages
Casino
Guns on shelves
Weird
I didn’t understand
Lost baby
She lost it
Girl taking family photo
Blue streak in her blond hair
Burns?
Face
Dying of something
Some family had a
Wreck
But you come back
For a moment it was the same
You called my name
As I walked away
I turned around
Smiled
The smile was genuine from you
And from me
It was normal
Hey how are you
But they pulled you away
Picture
Then your kin said a
Cousin?
Killed
And it was awful
No details I can’t.
No
No oxygen
Choked
Awful
Male cousin
I can’t say more
Too much
I’m tired
I walk away from this
I just wanted to speak that was all
No one gets it when I say I’m done.
I don’t mean with myself
I mean with all
I’ll be fine
I just wanted it to be someone who didn’t want it to be them.
I miss you.
Chase pirates
Don’t act like I don’t know
Are you dead without desire
Or desire without death
I’d feel you in the grave
Or walking in dry land
Don’t you get it yet?
I don’t hang on to you
You hang on to me
I tried
I just wanna reach you from where you wanna stay down there..
I wanna pull you up.
No matter the Shame you feel
It’s mine to help you with
Please put the bottle down
Just please
It’s ok.
I wish I could hold you
Just to tell you it’s ok.
Don’t you know the difference between friend and foe
Love and enemy?
It’s ok
Just as a friend
I promise
I promise you
If you exist anymore
Do you breathe?
If you do?
Your shoulder?
Pins
Needles
Knives
Hotel
Wake up.
Talk
Or go silent.
Stay the fool.
I just wanna hold you
Tell you it’s ok.
No matter how you fight me
And tell me you’re fine.
Just let me in.
No sin
Will shock me now.
It wouldn’t matter anyhow
The string exists
So run, hate me, drown it out.
I’ll get to forget you.
If you are in the afterlife
The one living for us.
The bottom of that well isn’t bottomless
I won’t let you drown
Just scream out what you need.
I wish you missed me as much as I miss you but all you can do is say to the rest?
It can be as platonic as I feel
You never saw importance in that
But you see enemy
See?
I told you so?
You
Cannot possibly know.
I choose you now above all others
This is the first time I’d say that.
I wouldn’t before.
Come back too
Hear.
Those echoes
Who is at the bottom of this well?
It isn’t me, my love.
C.R.S
Might be about a few people but mainly one in middle....
