When Love, Loves and Loves Alone.
This is over 13 years old. I found it . Thought I'd put It up with my 3 other newish yet sloppy poems...hehe
I woke up wishing I had the mind
to within these signs find
what I swore I was not wrong about
My conviction was torn from me
and I own not the insight
to take heed of what I know is worth the fight
I see well whats in plain sight
I wanna know what isn’t plain
I hear the words that pass through contained
I wanna hear what isn’t said
beneath half truths and context clues
where they cant be guessed
but understood
on that deep level beneath the would and should
I wonder if its even realized the signals you send
but I could’ve sworn all along
I saw a change in the wheel that turned out of shadow
for just a moment prolonged
but I cannot say Ive never been wrong
but all it would take was a single word thats sure
pushed against the pressure point
to fall completely under the waters allure
deeply in the waves embrace
a single word that I could trace
with my hand and nail
I know inside I’d likely fail
and I should be ashamed
but this isn’t what I aimed
to happen
if I am bold
I’m sorry Im sold
by this feeling
and I could’ve sworn all along
I saw a change in the wheel that turned out of shadow
for just a moment prolonged
and If I truly did then by all means
do exactly as it seems
and If I answer in kind
its not under presumption blind
I just feel lost, it blows my mind
I mean no disrespect you must see
please know these are just words
no matter how unpleasant they seem to you
they can do nothing
but burned they are through and through
by a fire thats there and has been
one doesn’t have to look very hard
right below and beneath the skin
I used to believe my instincts above all
and I guess I’ve lost the nerve to fall
in line behind what seems obvious
yet might not be at all
hidden truths and a dialect of the soul
are a language I’ve come to understand
yet doubt greatly
I live on an edge fatally
I know not any other way
I can go from black to gray
but I cannot back away
I can simply stay
very close yet far away
and because I know thats how you want it
I keep a distance
unless under the instance
one had a momentary lapse of reason
when love loves and loves alone
the silence can be a deafening tone
and I only wish I knew why
why for the first time I cannot lie
about what I’m thinking
yet I could’ve sworn all along
I saw a change in the wheel that turned out of shadow and into light
for just a moment prolonged
but Ive more than once been so very wrong
so its fortunate I know how to fade away
and I do know how to be strong
So I wish I had not the feeling that this belongs
But this could all be smoke in the air
something that disappears, not truly there
so I can and will fade to black and then conceal
myself within the shadows on this wheel
But I thought I saw from the darkness a light surreal
And it was something so unreal
that it must be followed at all cost
and Ive grown quite fond of being lost
—C.R.S
Copy right ...who knows ...and Its youthfulness and immaturity and feel does indeed show this.
I'll likely make this one better..I say that Alot I know... But I really will with this one..it needs help.
#depressing #heart #heartbreak #love #pain #sorrow #tears #unrequited
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