"Heaven shines thru the eyes of the wicked"
-The Phoenix, Raven,Snake,Queen -C.R.S...
For my bio in poetical terms
read my poems
The Phoenix The raven The Snake and The Queen
The Final Druid
Beneath the Tide
(my personal poems about my true self that still ring true today)
one thing you must know about me...reading my poetry..you might think im a negative lunatic who obsesses over death and morbidity and anything thats awful and terrifying... that lives in darkness and has every means of getting out but does not even try...I PROMISE..im a super happy positive person..i go thru depressive periods like all...but most my darker poetry comes from my past...or from that dark part of the soul we all have that I just choose to look in the face and write about...I dont live there....always at least... ;)
I lose hope in my poetry twice a year or so...and think I'm a failure at writing..this is probably normal of us poets...so I disappear for awhile and then I come back stronger...
down there is other pointless stuff id doubt anyone will want to read :)
WHAT MY POETRY IS TO ME:(or what my poetry is about)
poetry is my passion...or i should say just one of my many...I express problems of the soul, psyche, philosophy and revelation of the spirit through poetry ...revolution of the historical battle.. and revolution of the mind and generation of today..i can be introspective and my poetry is ever so slightly intellectual ...but to be honest its not intellectual enough..because honestly I'm not much of an intellectual..however i am somewhat a philosopher even if my philosophy isn't exactly intelligent ..also addiction and substance abuse which is one thing unlike the rest.. i almost fully understand...and in no way is that a cool thing..foolish, juvenile and ruin of life...hopefully people see that... and then i love to write of historical things that are somewhat morbid .. Those are many of my pieces..I touch on the chaos of the spirit or at least mine and I am a huge apocalyptic writer....it does not mean i believe the end of the world is nigh...i just find it fascinating and terrifying....so fun in other words...alot of fate in my poetry...and destiny ..i choose fate over destiny because it is a pretty word to make fate seem a little less intense ... The soul itself is ancient and I believe somewhere I can express something of yesterday .. I love poetry to be deeply psychological, raw , intense, passionate and elegant ...i write of the loss of innocence...and the loss of sanity..at least the insanity that i know of..there are many levels and types of insanity..and I'm sure everyone of us has one..as poets i can almost promise it...I love writing of anything from the mind which constantly is probing taboo and trying to help myself and others see it from the side that understand it. (I've yet to put that on here but i may when i feel out everyone more)..also the parts of the soul that many try to forget they have i like to write about and try to pull out ..anything forbidden or forgotten ..burial grounds .. Scenes of murder ...cemeteries you know like all of us poets or at least the ones i know..hehe ...but who can help it ..hey i like writing about death and loss and insane asylums..once again a lot of us do ..probably because the reality and tragedy in it and we love that stuff ....but then again sometimes a cemetery is beautiful because it is silent and full of life and thats why i think poets like it ...not just because it is cold and dead, i think some get us wrong on that.. i write from anything ancient and untouched..mysterious and unknown...i love the paranormal so spirits and ghosts and hauntings frequent my poetry which i will always attach to the soul....at times my poetry can be sexual but in the way the all should understand.
***By the way the poets and poems here are the best I've ever read on a internet site .. I've deleted all my other site accounts because this one is just classy and It's like every poem I read it just amazingly realized and every poet is greatly talented ... Everyone here could teach me so much...
***BUT.... I also am in belief that many poets of
Generation simply would rather be heard than listen and want people to read there stuff but don't want to read others and learn from others .. I hope to be proven wrong .. I myself am a child of this generation and had to break free of that selfish cycle***
WHO I AM SOMEWHAT::
In my latest years I've tried to stay lighter and deviate from my former self which was dark and ugly and whiney and sad ... There's pieces of it all over my poetry when I wrote the he phoenix ect. the darker part of my
Mind was taking over and I expressed it thru that ... Since then I've come back to my natural somewhat positive self ... like every poet we go in circles ... We go down and up and write of our experiences ....i understand I'm dramatic and probably should just be slapped in the face sometimes hehe...im from a small town in Texas and love it .. Everybody seems to think we are backwards and i don't know ...well don't pretend like you don't know the stereotypes ;) ...and all that but it's not true yea we got our crazies but does not everyone? ...hmm why am i talking about that now? ahem..anyways ...only there is not enough history here in the states ...i write a lot of the old world which i dramatically feel my soul transferred from ..i think a lot of poets feel reincarnated..alot of us may be old souls ...yes i sound like a nutcase and very silly and dreamy and unrealistic but strangley i also have a foot in realism and things are very real to me ...so my poetry takes on the duality i love so much ...extreme to extreme...my self portrait poem "the Pheonix The Raven The Snake and The Queen....explains me in all its lines and hints in it can be seen in all my poetry... ...but
"Passion to passion heard, felt and seen
Extreme to extreme, obscene to redeem
I am the snake and I am the queen
Inside is a halo, inside is a devil
Inside it is pure inside is an evil
Not on the shoulder but fixed in the soul
Neither lets go, the phoenix, the crow
One gives me wings, one takes me below
...Keep the fire within where the fire belongs
all i hate with such great hate and all my loves to strong"
yup..this is me in a nutshell even though the poem is much longer..may not want to read it if your still reading this..probably been in my world already a little to long..i commend you on your patience.how sweet of you to still be reading...but hmm what else to say besides I've obviously more than enough told you who i am...almost to the point you might be annoyed ...Im very intense and overbearing and sometimes find myself friendless because of it ...hehe...some of my inspirations are obvious like Poe or Pasternak or Shelley. Others not so much ...Pink Floyd...or Red Hot Chili Peppers and Modest Mouse...and uh many many others
MY TAKE ON POETRY AND WHAT IT IS AND HOW ITS DONE IN MY OPINION ONLY::
all that is phony disturbs me...i am who i am....i do not put on airs of "disturbed feelings" to get attention...in fact I'm seen as a "dark" person by some yet actually quite positive maybe because I'm silent unless I'm writing and then I'm like an open book...i actually feel like this site helps me put more of myself out there...anyways i have met many poets who get lost in all that is on the outside ..yes they were young and hopefully they will grow out of it..but they believed a poet was a cookie cut image...and really we are all different in many ways ...we are whats real and then we are whats imagined though we likely always have an idea of the truth...the best in my eyes to be as a poet is a little of everything...this is just my opinion and take but a poet to me is ...experience...an experience of everything...a little of everything...and i envy older poets who have lived thru there life tasty all of the things out there and no so much...im sure they'd tell me to slow down and savor life..and i try but I'm ready to experience all...also i don't exactly think there is a wrong way to write poetry as in the actual writing part.. i mean format is just how your feeling it...but I'm not an expert...i write from feeling and emotions and sometimes a little touch of logic...some people can do this the other way around and its fascinating ..obviously some poetry can be bad but honestly i just believe the reader just isn't moved ....if you aren't moved then its not the poem or poet for you and that can't be helped ...this reader just hasn't experienced that writers subject (on the poem) yet and maybe they will someday...but chances are this poem may have moved someone else to tears...remember those poems you read when you were small? they didn't quite move you yet but then when innocence was lost and life came down upon you ...all of a sudden that poem hit the spot...its like that to me ...every poem...it may move you one day it may not...so really are there bad poems? or just experiences not yet experienced? poetry in my eyes is all exaggerated feeling and emotion and reaction and relation to the next person reading it ...and i guess the better the poetry the more people you move...thats how i believe it should be graded...not by a certain format or rhyme...yes there are overused rhymes and rhythm schemes and I'm not fond of it...i don't like poems that try to copy others rhymes and format ..(not talking about inspired by...good grief its painfully obvious my rhythm schemes scream Poe)..and that is truly what i like people to watch for and tell me about and critique me on also ...i wish people would ALWAYS tell me if they were moved or not...if they were moved i succeeded in that particular poem in my eyes...if i didn't ...then i failed that particular person..help me with this...? id like to work more on intellectual poetry or philosophical poetry ...mine are so emotion based even if that is a small basis of poetry i want to write smarter ... i feel if enough people tell me what moved them about a poem I can find out what moves a human being to their core...i know what moves me to my core and perhaps my poetry is selfish as in it moves me and others like me..I WANNA KNOW WHAT MOVES YOU...also ...dont be a grammar nazi....ha...ok maybe you should be... i believe in education...but I'm not very good at grammar or punctuation...sorry
::MY EARLY POETRY INSPIRATION AND FIRST POEM::(theres more???why is there more???...because theres more thats why...got things to say here)
I still remember my first poem .. Well the first few lines .. I was probably 8
It was so simple yet in a way it had a depth that I had not
Yet realized and still to me today reminds me much of
My life ...a piece was
"Candle candle burning bright..keep me burning thru the night.".
eh no so great but hey i was 8...i did another rendition of it from the point of an insane man in an insane asylum ...ill put that up eventually...
hmmm sounds a little like tiger tiger burning bright which i never liked as a poem but loved the poet...but i knew no poetry at that age...and i was afraid of what came out of the dark instead of now embracing it as an extension of what comes out of me...if that makes sense...the many dualities of Katie...terrified and brave all at once...anyways thats what my poem at 8 was getting at ...candle get me thru the night I'm scared of the dark please don't go out ...perhaps i need to learn to write more metaphorically...perhaps I'm using the same words to many times
::IF I WERE TO TELL A YOUNG NEW POET HOW I WROTE AND GIVE ADVICE:: (enough?...nope because for some reason i found it necessary to tell everyone what i think of young poets and what i might tell them..who knows..)
my way of doing things I have gotten down to a science but only others can tell me if I've been successful or completely on the wrong track ... If I was talking to someone who just started out if be reluctant to give out advice .1. Because I'm not entirely sure I'm good enough to throw out advice 2. I beleive in giving inspiration but never telling them how to write that is part of the poetry itself .. The voice, the rhythm everything contributes to a poem and who you are inside .. Poetry is simply emotion exaggerated ... Poetry is the self given in words everyone who has a self can write poetry ... Some poetry will be better than other simply because some are naturally good at writing .. It lets so much out and lets so many in .. You can truly know someone by their poetry .. Of course some are more vision poetry in otherwords poetry on what you see but no matter how hard you try the poem becomes a poem when you put a voice in their and even when not talking of emotion you can see the self ... Anyways ...i Never settle ... Ever ..maybe for a day or week i can be like that's a good poem I just wrote but then the next day or week never say oh it's still good there's always ways to improve .. I've improved poems over and over ..the ones i put on this site I've already edited ..i know one day that has to stop but i keep reading them and think hmm nope nope this has to be different...so of course I'm not saying a poem can never be finished because I've finished many but I still think I can do better when I write a new one ...i already don't like most the ones i used to think were good.. ++ this has long helped me ....>Make every single word and thought and sentence relevant to what your idea is or make it so strong is comes out of the poem ... But I
Promise you will get leagues better just by never settling .. And making sure every line is constructed to complete relevancy and strong and intense .. Craft your words to literally to stab the other person .. Move them ..if I moved someone I've succeeded .. Lastly for me in my poems ...rough or hard words and soft words ..this is a philosophy I've always found to work for me unless your poetry is more lyrical or it absolutely cannot be without the word lift it up and make it a point to use this word but I do not use a rough word in a passing or relaxed line ..i use "soft" words not "rough" example .... I do not mean cuss words I mean words like proper nouns like lubys or
Dillard's but most people don't use it anyways .. But also words like the refrigerator trash dump ..stop sign ..mailbox .. Icepack...anyways list goes on and on and they aren't only nouns there are verbs and adjectives too.. There's always ways to
Describe the word you want to use if it's rough and that will make u a better poet trying to find a new way to say it .. it's not The definition of these words thats rough or soft .. I can find a soft word that means the same thing as the rough and use it .. what i mean of rough words is it just sounds off in my head and soft words move the poem fluidly and a rough ones seems to stop its flow... but then again that's my style and that's exactly why u do not tell anyone one on one how to write cuz how would I know ..... But like the title says if I was to
Tell a young poet something about how
To start Writing poetry ... I'd love to hear what everyones advice would be ..imagine how you write then..having all those ideas on how poetry comes out of the human mind and heart ... Always looking for
New ideas on poetry and how to
Write so plz message with thoughts and philosphy on your way and rules of writing ...
THE END OF MY LONG BIO::
anyways if your still reading I apologize and I'm surprised....but thankful ...id like to know what i can do to get better...your advice will be very helpful and appreciated ..i cannot learn enough...im a scorpio and all i feel like I've done here is overwhelm the reader...i just need to tone it down ...i feel a little exposed and a little vulnerable for letting you in so much ...hope i didnt make to much of a fool of myself telling you everything in my brain i was thinking at the moment...
also i am ....PARANOID::
dont steal other peoples work...its an awfully terrible thing to do...i know i shouldn't talk about this but something in me just forces me...
It's not that I feel my poetry is great enough to
Steal it's just I feel it's absolutely personal to me and anyone who could take even a line shows they don't know who they are enough to express their own .. I've been told that makes sense I've been told that sounds pretentious ... But I promise I'm anything but .. I've just known a guy to say he was a writer and more imaginative because he took other people's work ?! Who could be that way ..ive also gone online and found a poem of mine on someones profile with their name at the bottom..it felt like a kick...thats like having a piece of my soul stolen..and I'm afraid of it... So of course my paranoia kicks in ... That's the basis of it ... Everything I write is extremely personal to me and I feel many would feel that way .. And funny thing is this has been the only site I felt no one here would do such a thing .. The poets here are so
Classy and beyond me poetically.. I can't even get enough of this site... Some of the best unknown internet poets I've ever read here ...and everywhere .. I read a poem every hour that just blows me away ... >>HA did you read all that....no way....i commend you ...you have more patience than I...