Again With Your Ways
I feel like writing once again,
It’s been so long, where to begin?
My Life has crashed before my eyes.
I see myself laying down to die.
Something familiar I knew so long
Is now but a long, drawn out song.
Lyrics of sadness, grief and doubt
An endless battle through which I scout–
Always conscious and always aware–
I hated her eyes and the way she did stare.
So much frustration I could not hold
Ran tail tucked, a pussy who folds.
She never saw the truth in my eyes
Because I only fed her my lies.
I can never trust a woman such as she–
Because deep down I knew she couldn’t Love me.
What a fool’s game we played, and played it so well.
Living my own darkness, creating our own hell.
Not once did I feel the way I feel now–
Driven to pen without knowing how..........
Once again a beauty enters into my strange Life
And my soul takes flight, so what of that strife?
Dear Jessica, you know I want to be true.
Again I’m driven to pen, and all thanks to you.
You truly can drive a man clear insane -
At least this man, a boy perhaps... who is to say?
My heart was always there, there for you to see.
And now I lay true and bare, down before thee.
Thank you again, you’ll never know–
How happy I am that you are a part in my show.
For years the urge to express my heart
Was dead and rotting and that knowledge did smart.
For the second time awakened within me
Are the dreams and excitement for all to see.
I can accept you for all that you are...
... because you’ll always be my guiding star.
Christopher Loflin
29 July 03
I could have loved her. Whoops. My marriage was ending, too. Double whoops.
