I lie here sleeplessly with you heavy on my mind. My thoughts, my memories are a paralysis that takes me over. I desperately try think of anything, anyone, any moment but one shared with you. I fail as I am forcefully pulled back to you leaving claw marks in the floor. You have the power to hurt, to heal and yet a steady stream of tears drown me as I fight this alone, as I fight me alone. Who could of known the best year of my life would be my demise.