First Love (EXPLICIT)
“Can you hear me?” I asked you
“Do you love me to death?”
A silence grew
You looked away
My vision turned haunted black
Clear tears rolled from the dismay
My heart had started to crack
You looked back at me
Anger and red eyes releasing tension and heat
Yet, i wanted to ask so badly
“Why did you cheat?” I did every thing for your satisfaction
The first one I made love with
Guess you just looked at it as “fucking”
Guess you just wanted only the gift
Seeing you texting his phone
Saying “Bae, come here”
Overhearing you saying “I feel so alone”
Wondering, “Damn, I’m right here”
Getting that facebook message that night
Telling me, “Thats my bae. Fall back nigga”
Feeling confused, yet I said Alright
Deep down, that made me quiver
Guess being the boy next door wasn’t what you wanted
Shit.. look like the thug won
I gotta admit-it makes me feel daunted
Fuck him anytime, give him money, and some
That night, caught you slipping
All on his ass, hugging and kissing
Thinking “Do I get on that ass and start hitting?”
Instead, I turn, start crying, and wondering “Why me? Why hurt the one you said you love?”
That’s why I don’t trust anymore
Disney movies-guess that’s where you’ll find true love
You were suppose to save me you whore
I gave it all to you
I ask myself, “For What? Why?”
All this heartbreak and shit you put me through
Wish I can turn back time, hurt you, and lie
Karma will come for you
Nice lady, yet a mischievous bitch
Can’t wait to see you pain like I do
Hope that nigga drops your heart in a ditch
I’m done for now
You got me, I shall admit
Baby, you won, take a bow
Brag about treating me like shit
He’ll leave-bet that ring don’t mean shit to him
Probably fucking another bitch at this moment
Good for both of y’all
Deserve to get your heart filled with torment
Guess it took 6 years to truly release and forgive
It pains me to even write you
Probably won’t have anyone else while I live
All I ever wanted was you
