Twisted smiles, and angry words.
Flatter yourself if you must.
All you are is simple lust....
your face i can read it like a boo
Its screaming at all lost men, “i’

I dunno when it got so hard
To face my feelings
To face a mirror
To steer nightly at the ceiling
Not fearing

You just sit there waiting for wor
You keep on playing like it’s a ga
And don’t act like a hard man caus
Don’t you act like my dad when you
Step up mister I’m so bad ass!

I use to share at the mirror
Laughing back that the person ther
Cause I was thinner taller
And prettier
Then the version that is see

Sitting staring always waiting,
Hoping praying light still fading.
Kisses on your chest,
Slowly reach up to your neck.
Hope now draining from your eyes a

Have you ever wanted to carve your
With a giant + and the persons nam
Surrounding it in an uneven unreal
Well I have
I’ve wanted to carve my name into

Well if i had of know,
just over a year and a half ago.
what i was getting into,
i should have had a hint though.
You see you have chnaged.

No point in time wasting,
your a space invader.
Taking up lodgement in my head,
i want you cleared out.
Cause frankly to me you lie died,

What do I do wrong
A question
I ask myself over and over
Rolling a blade in between my fing
Denim itches on scars

“Emotions are my stand still
People pass me by
I chase for the thrill
It’s like it’s a personal high”
But the voices saying stop this

Numb or raw
Like the feeling between my thighs
The feelings of a missing child.
As a women,
Let me explain what being a women

Drop by drop,
tick by tick,
here it comes,
can’t keep it in.
And i lass out,

I long to take the pain away
make it stop just for a day
like you long me to have no fear
i’m proven you wrong by standing h
And you kiss me like no moment sho

Over and over words whisper throug
“You could end up dead”
Over and over I roll the dice in
Snakes eyes maybe I’ll be fine
Bitterly pulling the belt around m

When did I stop caring
Why did I stop the desire to
Pull men?
When did I pile on this weight th
Why did I let these stretch marks

You say words like easy,
when you beg me come please me.
Some men don’t need to be told the
Some know the weakness my eeys hol
the lies my ears have heard

You’ll miss me one day I knew,
you’d miss me....
And I couldn’t resist the temptat
your laugh your smile.
You claim you are alone,

Not many nice words are spoken,
at my home about you.
Words like sperm donor and lowlife
I guess sometimes where true.
But your blood ruins in my viens.

I wish
i wasnt full of fear
wish i wasn’t so stupid
and run instead of stay
i dream of the day

I cant seem to reach,
no matter what the pull.
I cant seem to see,
the bleach left no evidence.
Not a scratch or stain of blood,

Thights and finding them with his
these hips that tell hella lies
calves like baby calves
was i
a pretatory animal made up to run

somethings
I never now why
can’t beat this feeling
no matter how hard i try
and i’ll be distant

I feel a lot like dying lately
You might call it giving in
You might feel IV given up
But truthfully speaking I’m just
And I feel that a tablet wouldn’t

You claim i’m selfish,
yet you drink your life away.
Claiming i’m no good,
yet here i stay.
Minding that you don’t end yoursel

The two
One who would say you look amazing
And ask if I could paint my nails
The other would say you look the s
One who would say this is boring w

Soon you’ll be gone again,
away again.
My lover and friend,
and while you leave me at a shadow
To find your own world,

My nanny loved dogs
She was terrified of them
But not a bone in her body hated a
When she got the news paper the we
Demanding a second dog

I wanna put a pen to paper...
But I’m unsure if I wanna write y
Cause as much as I can state the
So dearest nanny,
I’m writing to say.

It took a village,
to break my walls down.
Not to raise me,
But to break me.
Depression isn’t the make up i wea

I never really knew how hard it wa
After you left i left you to go.
When you came asking how i was i w
After you no one as caring has com
I’v hidden the words about you dee

I’m so heart broken,
We still haven’t spoken.
God i’m choking,
Are you just joking.
This pain inside,

The bitter taste in my mouth
The dryness of my throat
The tears I fight back each night
The anger
The pain

You picked me up when i was down,
Shoving other mans shit just to st
And people have said for a long ti
that me and you had something but
You make me smile, play games i ha

For the weakness
In my legs
That used to help me kick off
And run for the hills when scared
For the trembling

This morning I woke as normal,
The tv on down stairs.
The news that they were reading,
I could barely hear.
But i heard that Seamus Heaney,

Neither here,
....But you’re not there
Not to sure where,
....But you’re not there.
I’m stick steady,