So now I'm gone.
One: I fell for you, maybe just a little too much.
Two: you were perfect, real perfect.
Three: but I guess I just wasn’t good enough.
Four: I guess I wasn’t really anything to you, I was just your fucking hiteman!
Five: you once meant everything to me.
Six: we fucking pinky promised!
Seven: that must have meant nothing to you.
Eight: but it did to me.
Nine: I told you shit. A little too much.
Ten: so now I’m lost.
........
One: you didn’t fall for me tho.
Two: I wasn’t perfect.
Three: but now I know you aren’t worth it.
Four: I held you so close!
Five: but yet you somehow slipped through my grasp.
Six: so now your promises mean nothing.
Seven: it doesn’t mean shit to me more.
Eight: now I’m gone.
Nine: and someday you’ll miss me.
Ten: but I’ll miss you more.
I wish I could sacrifice myself to the sky hoping to be reincarnated into someone spiteful enough not to give a fuck about you anymore.
But I still do.
Cut My throat and let all the lies flood out. Pierce my side with the sword just to see all the butterflies escape.
And rip open my mouth just to see all the pride I swallowed claw itself out of me
So one: yeah I fell for you but when I did you didn’t catch me.
So. Now. I’m. Gone.
(2014)
