The search
As I sit here I ponder many things,
Questions begin to creep in.
I ask myself why? When? How? And with Who?
But don’t worry I’m not crazy
At some point so will you.
Most days I am on point,
All is well in the world,
Feeling strong, clear minded and with purpose.
Other days aren’t quite so nice,
Loneliness, confusion
Like walking in pitch black total absence of light.
We all have a journey and each decides his fate,
all have struggles none being the same,
But if we’re lucky when our time is up,
History will prize our name.
Life is a search for love, acceptance and space,
Our space in the book of life,
Our meaning, Our purpose our place.
We will laugh, We will cry,
We will feel things words can’t describe.
They will try us and we will try ourselves,
But the choices we make will decide.
Will it be heaven or will it be Hell?
If you believe in such things.
For some do not.
Who am I to say what is right or is wrong?
I know my heart keeps me on the path
from becoming lost.
So as I sit here and ponder such things,
My questions remain the same.
Will I find her and who? When? And where?
I wonder if this loneliness will finally
drive me insane?
Or maybe I’ll wake from this nightmare.
And at last I’ll Know her name.
(2013)
