Inside of me no one can see
The crushing of my soul
I smile and laugh like everyone else
But long so to be whole.
Pretending not to want to die
For many it would pain
But just to feel that restfulness
Would help me breathe again
Yes i have love and should feel blessed
As so many live without
But hese hands placed firmly round my neck
Just makes me want OUT.
I often wonder what it would be like
To appreciate the sun
To rest or sing or even sleep but this i can do none
My body aches with unseen pain
To friends i seem so cheery
Oh how i wish they’s see right through
And know that i am weary.