Expressing your feelings and saying how you want us to spend eternity while my heart is torn between commitment and uncertainty

Do I love you? If I said no that’d be a lie but my actions can’t prove it and I know they make you cry And I know that you’d forgive me if I said “I’m sorry” a million times.

Ever so often we travel this road where I trip and you catch me and I refuse to tell a lie and the truth cuts like a razor puncturing your heart and seeing you hurt just makes me want to die... inside.

Washing myself in the tears you’ve shed to feel your pain because you’ve never wronged me but from your arms I’ve fled time after time but with no gain.

Loss of time loss of love and loss of trust isn’t a gain but what I’ve acquired after failed attempts to rid my heart of caring for you but somehow each failure made me realize more and more that it’s nothing out there except lust and it’s  you I should run to.

How many times will you open your arms and heart to ease me of this self inflicted pain when you to are hurting because of me praying that I won’t do it again. Leave and come back got your heart on string tugging it when I need or want it selfishly taking your love for granted and never sealing the deal with a ring.

Ring means never a beginning or ending just a seamless unbroken bond forever linking two souls blessed by God to spend life’s remainder cherishing and loving each other unconditionally but my eyes persuade my mind to do what pleases only me and I’m afraid to break that bond for infidelity.

When the time is right the pieces will fall into place and we will be able to stop playing this game of chase because I’m tired of running from how I really feel and I know you’re tired of trying to prove yourself as being all I need and I promise one day soon I’ll ask the question you want while I kneel.