Breaking of your shell
You will never see it coming
It will be a quiet moment when the silence is pierced with the sound of your entire self being shattered
Your ears will ring with the thumping of your heart racing to leave you,
it doesn’t want to feel the pain you’re enduring
You’ll feel pins and needles everywhere from the brute force
Won’t be able to breath for how hard you’ll cry
You’ll barely have the strength to fight the struggle of giving in to that demon you’ve always fought
to give in to the darkness.
And after your mind has doubled over itself a million times,
placing every word of deceit over 18 months
After it has repeatedly played the perfect scene of every touch, every kiss, every moan, every breath that he shared with someone else
After all the rage has burned you from the inside out
Will come a surreal haze where you give the last of yourself to a stranger from a bar.
It’s an unusual peace when you are empty,
like a well that was once full but now dehydrated
That’s when your heart and soul has left
You are light
Free from any bonds to anything
And especially anyone
