S.T.T
What could I do?
I’ve made many mistakes
I’ve learned to get right back up
But this feeling, is way heavier than an "usual mistake"...
I can’t shake this feeling
I know they say don’t regret
but I’m stuck in this waterfall of regret
I can’t go back, but it can’t stop me from wishing
What can I say to try to make it right
Can’t say I’m tha person I was than
I’ve done a lot of growing up since that day
Not a day goes past that
I think about what happen
Or not think about you
We went from being one another’s back bone
To being complete strangers
that try ducking and diving one another.
I’m tired of it being that way
I wanna go beyond that point...
I know I messed up
I can admit my wrong
I can say I’m sincere
I’d like you to be in my future
I miss tha deep heart fill conversations
I miss tha little stuff that I overlooked
I was blind
Too busy thinking with my mind and everyone around me
Instead of what I knew and felt...
Can you believe three years?
When it should have been ten
The other day I came across our necklaces
From the very first one to the one we got for christmas
Kind of made my heart drop
All the memories
It just flowed threw me like blood
Never understood
why it met so much to you for me to wear it until recently
I opened my eyes!
I know that the damages been done
I’m not sure what I’m exactly searching for
I wish there was an reset, rewind, or start over
There’s so much that I would correct
just for you to be by my side or me by your side
My life just aint the same without you existing in it
I kept all our letters, emails, drawings, poems, and pix
Wasn’t sure how to let it go,
I guess somewhere I held onto hope,
This wasn’t suppose to be the plan
I wish I knew what was going threw ur head..
One day I hope you forgive me
Nobody can take ur place or even replace
Tha memories
There’s an everyday reminder
that we have to live with
For the rest of our lives
Can’t lie
I thought of changing or adding something on it
But I can’t bring myself to do it
One day I hope we can move past all that
Maybe start off fresh somewhere
When tha chance comes,
if it ever does this time there won’t be any mistakes...
On everything I love and the most important people in my life
Your tha one still missing yet...
I know your hard headed....
I hope I at least left you
Thinking..
(10)
