No Such Thing
Look straight into the eyes from which you see
Untill then you will search aimlessly through wreckage and debris
To find elsewhere what you had right here in me.
I though you already knew by the words you spoke that night
When lying side by side our spirits seemed to collide.
Then as we slept revisiting our dreams
The ones when we were so high the energy screamed.
No better feeling can I imagine
Not in this lifetime
Don’t think there ever has been.
It truly felt as if the confusion and lonliness had been lifted from me
I could of sworn it was real.
Now the broken promise exists in my world everyday
It won’t let me away
Can’t fight off the pain
It eats at my brain.
Sometimes I go into denial
Can’t fully wrap my mind around it.
How my whole inside was transformed
Now it’s all just a memory
A precious flower had bloomed
Now it’s withered into the dirt
I never fathomed how much this could hurt.
(2014)
This was written as a song, this is the chorus:
What have you done - why didn't you just get a gun
It would have been easier
You could of just pulled the trigger - with your little finger
So these feelings wouldn't linger.
In the back of my mind something was telling me
Don't put your all into this
Cause just like all the rest- he'll fail the test- my heart didn't know best
Theres no such thing
Once intertwined- but not anymore- we will bleed endlessly
Living out our days apart and in the dark
