What's wrong with me?
Suicide, what's wrong
It’s been hard to understand what has been going on,
I feel like an emotional wrecking ball, destroying things from dusk till dawn.
These thoughts in my head, I’d wish they’d go away,
But it’s just as stubborn as a leech saying “I’m here to stay.”
These thoughts have haunted in my sleep, I always wake up at 3.
Sweating unrealistic and panting, what’s wrong with me?
I used to be a happy person with enthusiasm and energy,
But now in these days I’m sad.
It’s these thoughts in my head past visions I see,
Now things are going bad.
Its times I feel regret, which I cannot let be.
I’m just always upset with myself, what’s wrong with me?
I’ll always smile at people, but behind that mask is always a frown
It’s a self-defense to avoid people, not letting them know I’m down
I don’t have a thing against people, I just rather be by myself.
I feel no understands me, but me and no one else.
But as much as I like to be alone, I don’t want it to be just me.
But unfortunately I’m bearing this and I still don’t know, what’s wrong with me?
I feel like a balloon, the air I hold is anger and hate
It feels like the more I hold, I’ve known I sealed my fate
When you hold too much, an explosion comes soon
Then all I see is a red rage, delivered with a boom
It gets very tiresome, I wish it would let me be
But now start see clearly now, what’s wrong with me
Death has been waiting for me
But I say to myself it’s too soon
Times I just wand to jump off a cliff
or out my window from my room
Dreams and thoughts are not real
But as clear as day, i see
The time is short to seal the deal
What is wrong with me?
Suicide is the name that’s traveled with me for years
It’s a hard mental illness that will put you into fear
It puts you in foul moods and wish you would die
Make you want to end life now, and release your soul to fly
(2015)
This one is as real as it gets. This is actually based off of me. My past
