( wasting time)

Where my mind lingers and my thoughts wonder.  only place I ever known that nothing seems to get old. Every picture appears the same. My life becomes an 9 11 reunion. Confuse about what tomorrow will have. Never could see what the future has. This path can’t be for me. Was it really for me? Walk antil these legs get sour. Heart is well over done. Can you see what life has wasted. Lingered into misery, I guess it miss my company. Blocked out the next nine lifes, did a whole lot of  dumb shit. Niggers riding with me but wouldn’t fall with me when I reached rocked bottom. Bottoms up! Another great failed year. Sorry I wish I could of been here. Let life defeat one. All the wrong crowds took two. On third try I feel in love with wants and more wants. Next nigger got the hottiest watch, car, shoes, clothes.shit even got the girl I could of had. Wants is an hell of a drug. I’m so addicted. Fell in love with more wants. That bitch got the hottiest clothes, hair, makeup, shoes and shit she got the dude that use to be mines. Wish I would of act right. Made more time to love em right. Spend more time. Show em he don’t need no other. With the rest of my gun smoked life up to nine.
He slaved his heart to her like it was breath. No chance.this ant a time to play fair. Gave every broken peace of it as well peices that couldn’t be fix.
New life, american history.there memories only stay with him. She took the rest like a ko fight..hard hard, hard as he can..fought for what was.what could have been. Wasting time son! Moved on with last air. No more chances. I regret you left. Regret you ant stay. I regret you took my new heart heart away. Now I die each day. Another love.feels just right. Healed up quit nice. Gods the reason. Wanna love her too just as stronger. Equally more!
(Pause)so many lame dudes been there. Broke her. Stole the word trust away. Left her like a rape victim only yet they rape her heart. Scared, bitter so cold. Trying to build with her. She pushed away. Destroyed.monster soul.get away from me! Look what the fuck life has done!questioning life. Ready to dive. Is this the end or rewrite of should have been. Waiting for her love back. Laying in the emergency bed. Life left me here? Ami wasting time? Or waiting for life to make this other nine lifes mines..so I live more and never stop at and. Just realize there’s more life has in store.