Childhood
I watch her jumping rope and playing hopscotch in her backyard.
It’s strange to me to be an outsider looking in.
You were exactly what I never wanted when I had you,
but now there are days when I wish I could bring you back.
You left before we could say goodbye,
but you wouldn’t have recognized me, and it wouldn’t have mattered.
I changed, people changed, time passed by, but I’ve always missed you.
You gave me many things to be grateful for,
but that doesn’t mean I don’t wonder “what if”..
What if you had stayed for just five minutes longer?
Who would I have been? And where would you have taken me?
I smile because I know what I have, but I cry sometimes because I didn’t get to have it all.
I watch her jumping rope and playing hopscotch in her backyard.
It’s strange to me to be an outsider looking in.
(2010)
