soulmate
our whole lives we look for that one person. one broken heart after the other you still believe there is one person your supposed to be with and no matter how hurt you are you get off the floor and look again and again. ive found the only one i want but no matter how much i love him it just will never be. i didnt think love was supposed to hurt so much. day after day even after all the hurt how i feel has never changed. you can hurt me pretend i dont exist ignore me hate me and treat me like im nothing. ill never hate you. you will never be nothing because your my everything even if your not mine. i can fight to let you go fight my feelings but they will always be there. ill never love anyone again like i love him. im starting to think some of us were never ment to find the one maybe some of us were ment to find our soulmate in a friend or your kids. if thats it then my babies are the only one for me there always there and will love me unconditionally. think in some way ive always known this. im not ment to be loved to be sometimes only one no matter how much i love him he will never love me the way i do him. it hurts but i guess i can be happy at least i got to be with him for a little bit even if i dont get to marry him and die old with him. life isnt like that its nothing like the movies or how ive created in my head how i want my life to be. my fairy tale ending ended a long time ago and i just have to accept it now.
(2015)
