Burdened truth
It takes a while
to murder the heart
so while a smile
each is placed in a chart
so I face each truth
receives it all with a slap
yet I never made any attempt
to ever knock you off ground
my life’s the story
I’d like to watch in the theater
surrounded by judgments
but I’d like to judge and be judged
by the one who is pure
lock within screen
wondering which feelings’ trapped me in
so when I love
man, I don’t know
it’s the burden truth
that’s fighting my soul
that kills me a million deaths
that imprisons me of my wrong
that’s come to say
“you know I’d catch up”
heard so much
I don’t know which to believe
don’t know if the truth
is even worth hearing
it’s the burden truth
that applies my wrong in daylight
taken by surprise
what shall I do?
how can I deny?
it’s the burdened truth
that lies to me in my sleep
that traps me with my conscience
that’d try so much
to set me free
so their words fade as wind
like waves that comes
to say goodbye
their image remains
like nightmares of nights
like a picture
glued to the walls of my brain
I believe I’ve lied plenty
to my own self
then again, how can one
live without trust?
It’s the burdened truth
that attaches me to hate
that breaks me within its palms
that scatters my brain
so I forbid to forever pay
for a crime long done
for a ransom long paid
for the ache of my bones
wanting so much
to be touched by his skin
to be moved by his hands
burden truth
that never gave me a chance
to defend myself
to have a say in the judgement
to admit to the wrongs
and apply my side of rights
so I can be flown to freedom
set peace with my soul
give the heart what it needs
in time to come
to listen to my left side
so I block the mind
justifying all his faults
burdened truth
that buries me deep in my grave
that punishes me
again and again
time and time
so I don’t forget
that I’m no better than them
who falls so hard
who grieves so much
burdened truth
that burdens me deep in hate
so that I love all who surrounds me
all I never met
caging my heart for someone special
