Gud-by 4Ever
at times,
we’d talk and talk
but the words hold
no lies nor truth, no value
they’re simply meaningless
like a couple of notes played
that scatters within perfectioned lyrics
music with no melody
no claim, nor control is made
seeking to set the mood
that’s all we was to each other
we’d murmur “i love you”
toward each other
yet we never confirmed..
the words held no truth
we tried so hard to love each other
to soothe each other’s
unfulfilled pleasure
there’s nothing more left to say
when in the end
it’s all empty words
i was the princess
you set out to conquer
you gave me so much value
each word that escaped my mouth
draws you closer to me
as if you forgot i held true intelligence
and holds a precious soul
i was the goal you acquired
you won the battle
but it’s impossible to win war
you proved your point
i couldn’t claim you
cuz i wasn’t trying to purchase
the goods you set out
all i could do was window-shop
it’s better if we simply let go
say goodbye and no more
as i’m cowardly justifying
so we don’t end bittersweet
in bitter hate
to each other we were cruel
mine’s was before
when i was held captive
in his kingdom of love
yours is now
as you throw me aside
and within your eyes
you hold pleasure
as you’d try to fill me with jealousy
i locked you out
cause i know your feelings
were laughable as all cowards
degrades their bully
as mimes are used to the mimicking
gestures, they don’t take offend
cuz that’s all they ever do
with confidence i say i’m good
when i was so sure
your heart was playing a trick on you
i now dislike your actions so much
i could criticize you
lower you, so i could upgrade myself
but i prefer not to
it’s not worth it at all
slowly i wished you mine
i had hope to give you my love
but what can i give
when i don’t obtain
and slowly you slipped
so you notice i’m different
yet the average holds
much more strength and courage
cuz i live in fear of differentiating myself
i hold so much questions, it’s unlimited
the accusation my eyes held
holds no remorse
we said i love you
but it’s never truly said
we stabbed each other
in ways that we can’t say
it fills us with grudge
our words held no truth
our actions proved it a lie
we both know
i’d run away just to return to you
our goodbye is forever you said
we should remain distant
i should not try to turn us
into something we’re not
then again, you’d call and i’d answer
we’d talk until
we awake past faults into existence
as we plea with all our might
to give each other another chance
i’d hope to never had a start
in the end, the blame’s all on me
unfortunate, i’d say
it’s honestly not luck
that i’d trap you in a drama
you don’t belong
trying so much to resolve a conflict
that’s been dropped as the resolution
cuz you just go along with the ride
silent you remain,
so the wrong things won’t be said
you’d let me express my feelings
we’d get so close to abuse our friendship
in the end, we accept goodbye as forever
it sucks, cuz i didn’t mean
for it all to end like this
to be honest, i’d prefer
to keep to myself
that’s the best choice i’d ever made
what could you possibly know about love?
your words now
contradicts the ones before
i’d prefer trust, but then again
none of that matters
i’ll soon have to let go
so forever will gulp us in silence
it’ll be like one of these memories
that remains
a part of history that can’t be erased
sooner or later, i’ll have to accept
i was never yours
you will never be mine
pardon my exaggeration
as you said, i’m crazy
i can’t help my naivety
it’s better if we let go
i won’t be chasing you
it’d be like chasing a kite
when i can’t travel across the ocean
by feet, i’d drown two feet after
my meeting with the waves
you said, and it’s replayed within
my thick skull
goodbye, goodbye, goodbye
goodbye..... forever
